Raise your hand if February was hard. Okay, now raise your hand if you are excited for spring. If you raised your hand twice, then we must have a lot in common. I’ve mentioned this before, but in August of last year I left my full time job to take some time to reconnect with myself, focus on my mental and physical health and not be depressed and sad at my desk job. The fall was filled with visiting friends and family, nannying, working with Fiona at Island Apothecary and working various part time jobs on the island. This January my schedule shifted and after a medical procedure at the end of that month, I entered February a little bit more unemployed than I had expected.
Although the shortest month of the year, it felt like the longest. From recovering from my surgery, to the cold, wet, dark days, to reading daily headlines about the harmful decisions our administration was making, to fully throwing myself into the job search, I felt a little lost.
My relationship with myself and how I felt in my head and body began to melt. I had too much time but everything felt like a waste of it. If I didn’t clean the kitchen properly or do enough around the house what was I even doing during the day? Does leaving the house to go to the post office fully count as leaving the house?
I froze up. Froze when it came to being kind to myself, froze when it came to doing household chores, froze when it came to being online for IA.
Then March came, and I felt myself defrost.
The sun came out, the ice began to melt and I could feel the season changing. I began subbing at the community school, was able to submit applications and cover letters I was proud of, and I was able to go outside again. All bundled up and listening to Doechii loud as I walked up and down the island.
March is the welcome mat to spring. The first step before the door to enter a time of defrosting. As the sun comes out and we have more hours of daylight comes a new age of hope and energy. Especially on the island as we all go outside more and prepare for the summer rush. Say goodbye to the winter blues and hello to the spring greens.
I hope my March is filled with job opportunities, inspiration for Island Apothecary, sun salutations, exploring the island and experiencing less ferry sea sickness on the winter ocean. I am still in my defrosting mode, not fully free but not fully frozen.